I'd wanted to learn to knit for about as long as I can remember. I distinctly remember as a small child asking my mother to teach me how to knit. The only problem with that was that she didn't know how to knit.
"Your grandma tried to teach me once, but I just couldn't do it. It's too hard. Here, let me teach you how to crochet."
So I dutifully learned to crochet, but I never really enjoyed it. My heart longed to knit.
My grandma had known how, but she'd had a massive stroke when I was just three years old. Her right side was paralyzed, and the part of her brain that controls speech was damaged. She was never able to use her right hand or speak clearly again. I thought about asking her anyway if she could teach me, but my mother was afraid it would make her feel bad if she couldn't make herself understood. I never asked her, but in retrospect, I wish I had. I tried to think of anyone else in my family that may know how to knit, but no one did. They all crocheted.
"Oh, I tried to learn to knit, but I couldn't. It's too hard. My fingers just weren't made for knitting. Here, let me show you how to crochet."
So I continued on with my crocheting, though I didn't really enjoy it. My heart yearned to knit. When I was in the Navy, I wanted to knit a sweater for my now ex-husband. I found some absolutely beautiful yarn that I just loved. The only problem was, I didn't know how to knit. Yeah, there are patterns out there for crocheted sweaters, but they just weren't what I wanted. They didn't have the drape of a knitted fabric. They seemed stiff as a board to me. So I crocheted him a huge granny square afghan. We were divorced before I finished it.

Even after I'd gotten out and returned home, the dream to knit stayed with me. I was talking to one of my dad's neighbors over the back fence and somehow the subject came up. I mentioned that I'd always wanted to learn to knit and she said,
"I tried it once and it's just not....It isn't....You'd be better off sticking to crochet."

Fast forward five years. It is 1998, or thereabouts. I was perusing the craft department at Wal-mart when I spotted a
I Taught Myself Knitting kit. It had everything I needed to learn to knit except yarn, but I already had that. I decided I was going to buy it and I was going to learn to knit. Finally. After 30 years of longing, I was going to learn to knit.

I bought the kit. I got home and eagerly sat down and read the book. I got my yarn out and started trying to knit, and guess what...
It just wasn't working. My fingers didn't seem to be made for knitting. It was too hard.
I just couldn't do it. Needles and yarn ended up stuffed in the bottom of a craft drawer, forgotten...
Until the day I was cleaning out my craft cabinet and found them again. I decided I would try just one more time. I don't know what was different, but that time it just clicked. It worked. My fingers seemed made for knitting. It was easy, and I could do it.

I was living my dream. I was knitting. And I've never looked back...
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